Visual overload

I don’t feel the energy to take pictures. Or is it laziness? I’ve been thinking about it for a long time and never could nail it. I love photography, I want to shoot or rather I would like to do it but instead I’m just doing other things. Podcasting, streaming, board gaming, reading etc but not shooting pictures.

Does it mean I’m burnt out or just my dedication and love for photography were not true? Why don’t I feel that tinkling every time I think about developing film or scanning it? What’s wrong?

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Ads ruined Instagram for me

Right at the top I want to be clear that I’m not against ads on the internet in general, I know why we need them and what they do. What I want to make my point about is the level of tolerance.

Now, let me go back a little and give you the context. For the last several months I’ve been mostly using Instagram for my social media fix, and for posting too, as you can easily guess by the date of my previous post here. I love the concept of Instagram, and I would even argue that it is a better platform for me to share whatever I shoot these days. It’s quicker and simpler and it’s photo oriented.

But today is the day I start drifting away from Instagram and the reason is ads. I don’t remember when they started popping up in my feed, I couldn’t care less for them. Occasionally, I would even stop scrolling and watch them a bit, and for some time seeing ads was fine with me. Untill I noticed a thing, or rather the thing. I saw that now I tend to see too many promotions when I scroll down to catch up with my feed. I got curious and actually counted how often they appear.

Every 3 posts. Three. I don’t know about you, but to me it seems a bit too much. At some point, especially if I look through a day worth of posts, I get the feeling I see only ads.

This discovery made me decide to leave Instagram or at least use it less, which is a great bummer considering my love for the idea. I strongly believe that Facebook have gone a little too far in their greed attempt to keep Instagram free and yet profitable.

Now, when I’m on my way out, there are only two platforms left that didn’t disappoint me yet. Those are WordPress and Twitter. Though I’ve always had troubles figuring out Twitter, I see how it can be a place for me to share my photography and more importantly connect with people. As for the WP, the whole insta debacle reminded me how great the Reader feature is, and that on mobile it even resembles a social media feed.

So this is it. As much as I would like to use Instagram, my tolerance for the number of ads was abused and I don’t feel like coming to terms with this. I’ve practically left Facebook years ago and didn’t feel any need to come back, but with Instagram the break up is not going to be that easy.

Time wasted

I waste a lot of time doing things I shouldn’t be doing at the moment or at all. It may not be true for everyone but it is for me.

With so many things happening in life it’s almost a crime to waste time. Yet I find myself doing exactly that more often than I’d like.

Sometimes I sit down with the intention to write a post or publish a picture and an hour later I’ve not even started. Sure there is a reason for that but nevertheless I can’t forgive myself for such bad time management.

I’ve looked at the date of my previous post and it was more than two weeks ago. I don’t have any regular schedule, true. And maybe I shouldn’t beat myself up for this but as much as I want to be consistent with posting I don’t find a lot of time for thinking it through and then actually writing.

And I don’t blame my life, work and family, no. I blame myself for wasting too much time on small things that look harmless for productivity but turn out to be huge sinkholes.

It affected my photography too. I’ve previously praised film for bringing so much joy when I develop and then scan it and it’s all true. But because of “the lack of time” I don’t get to processing film lately. Newly developed pictures used to be a great motivation to post frequently but not having developed a roll for a month or maybe even more I’ve got nothing to write home about. Except for occasional digital stuff which seems easier to process and share.

Being an optimist as I am, I still hope this is just a phase. We all have these moments after all. The struggle is hard but acknowledging the problem is a step into the right direction.

Shooting an event helped me love my digital camera again.

Sometimes good things come from an unexpected side. A couple of weeks ago the company I’m working for had an event for the kibbutz it’s based in, and I was asked to take some pictures despite the fact they had invited a photographer.

I’m not a professional in the sense that I don’t do gigs but this case was different so I agreed.

To be honest, it wasn’t the first time I was asked to do something like that. I made a short video of the Purim carnival several months ago, but no photos. This time it was right up my alley.

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